So I haven't posted in a while. I'd like to say that it's because I've been so busy that I just simply couldn't find any time to write.
Although that's part of it, I guess. There's been lots of stuff going on and Saturday was potentially the most fun I've ever had (more on that to come).
But more than anything I've been lonely.
And I want to whine about it. Gods know that if you've been around me in the last couple of weeks you've heard me talk about it. I feel like I need to talk about it because it feels beyond lame to hide it. But now I just want to whine.
So I'm not going to.
Fuck whining. I want something to happen. Good gods I just want something new to happen.
I have wonderful family and friends, a good job and a nice house - but I'm feeling uninspired and unmotivated. Just give me something to be passionate about.
I've been feeling that itch - no, not that kind of itching, gross-o's - I've been feeling antsy, needing to get away. I haven't been out of town since Labor Day's campout, and before that it was August for an overnight trip to Des Moines for a girl's weekend. Before that I hadn't been out of town since Cabo in February. All were great trips, but the last time I was anywhere farther away that the tri-state area was almost a year ago.
This time, I think I need to go somewhere new and explore on my own. Or somewhere old and explore on my own. Yes, I've been lonely so maybe a solo vacation doesn't sound logical on the surface, but I think it could do good things to get me feeling confident alone again. I know that my old solo journeys were wonderful for me. I mean, look at this happy girl here - I want to be this girl again:
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| On a lobster fishing boat on the shore of Prince Edward Island |
Ahh where to go?
Loveylovey,
Annie Jay
PS: In case you were wondering, this isn't a real post, it's only my attempt at breaking my writer's block and getting opened up again. And whining. It's mostly about whining.
I have the urge to watch Buffy, the musical episode now.
ReplyDeleteGive me something to SING about!
DeleteI remain impressed by people who travel solo, as that's something I've yet to conquer! I think I'm all "RAWR, independent woman", but I think at least a baby step, a weekend trip, is required before I can do any legit rawring.
ReplyDeleteI do hope you find your mojo, and your destination, AND tell us about Saturday! ;)
Oh honey, you've got to try it. I absolutely recommend a weekend trip alone somewhere. Especially since you live in such a fabulous part of the country :-) I was actually thinking about maybe going to NYC for a trip. NYC solo could be looots of fun.
DeleteSaturday was just a fabulous time with a lot of great friends. Definitely brought on the happy :-D
I love doing things alone but to echo bluemoon, I've never traveled solo - besides going to visit people alone. Lots of props for feeling happy doing that because not many people have the confidence to explore the world alone - even though you're not ever really alone. :) You're awesome.
DeleteWell thanks lady :-) If you ever want to give it a try, I definitely recommend it. Not to lie, I was pretty terrified my first time ever trying it but I really learned to love it!
DeleteTraveling solo is really liberating! Maybe I'm still feeling the endorphins coming off a recent vacation, but it's awesome not only to travel at your own pace/agenda, but then to look back and say you did it. I guess since I've never really been in a couple, I'm accustomed to doing everything alone (I love my friends but there's very few I'd want to travel with).
ReplyDeleteSabrina, your trip to Vietnam is what's making me want to get back on the horse for solo travel! There's no better way to force yourself to reach out to strangers than when you're on your own.
DeleteAbsolutely! It's intimidating but you're also more likely to chat with randoms and be bolder than you would at home.
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